gummi Chandelier ii in detail

gummi Chandelier ii in detail
Inside the gummi bear Chandelier Jr.

Friday, April 04, 2008

Garlic. In you face!

What would you change if you can change any part of your body?
Most women have wishes for their appearance, I wish for a new immune system.

My immune system is the reflective of me. She's a workaholic, over reacting to everything and doesn't know when to stop. We have had this terrible relationship to have to put up with each other ever since I was born.

Most people have immune systems that can get rid of dust and mites without the body realizing it. Mine treats pollen as a gun pointing to my head. Only that she always blows me up before the gun did.

I have experimented on all sorts of herbal remedies, diet changes, life style modifications. I consider myself pretty clean inside by now, but my immune system still remains busy overloading herself with tasks. Very much like me.

A accidental intakeof heavy dose of raw garlic helped me calm her down last night. ha, raw Galic, the most simple basic herb in the pantry. "Garlic. in you face!" I said to my immune system. Now that she can't work too much any more, she is more normal and pleasant to be with. But what about the workaholic me?

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

refocus rezero home

Life is but a tree, we instinctively follow the sun and were born to grow toward the sky.
Somehow other things came in the way, made us grow branches that bifurcate into all directions. They bring us much needed experience in this journey but sometimes can distract us from who we really are and why we started.

The opportunities to show are my branches. They educate me and build my confidence. Every emerging artist want some of these, and I do, too, badly. But I've came to realized that I need to re zero my meter every time I finished installing a show.
It is not to dwell in the after taste, but to move on and refocus/zoom out my lens.

I've gotten jealous, resentful, greedy and unhappy the more opportunities I have. Why is that? I ponder and ponder for a long dark hellish time. It is because I have lost the original vision and blinded myself with the short sparkle right in front of this moment. The more I have, the more I want, and the more I can not get. This pity old human folklore has come to an end.
Taking the sweet gratefulness I received from the most sophisticated and open-minded audience from the NOW show, I step into a new realm, leaving behind the self-pity. I may not be good enough, but I do my best at any moment. Each day I start a new day in the studio, discarding what I don't have and embracing what I have, which is my love and respect to my art. After all, I just want to make art, and having the ability to make them happen is the only juice I survive on.
Thank you all, who came thru my works and become part of it. Your taking it slow and digesting it thoroughly made this installation the most beautiful. Welcome to my branches!