白色的回憶

聖誕節快到了,雖然不愛過節的我們忙到快翻掉了,還要盯著新家的休建進度,我手邊還欠著一本書,5件作品加上二月中的個展,過年又回不了家了,連新家八成都搬不成了...這都不算討厭,討厭的是翻譯翻一翻,竟翻出想念三姊的記憶...
想到那年我回到美國後,聖誕節時卻病到不行,還以為自己有氣喘哩!無原無故地怎麼也不會好,二姊也出國了,只剩下大姊和爸媽在台灣,寂寞的三姊偷接了一大堆大夜班,大概也覺得過節過得沒意思吧!連活著都沒意思了說...
聖誕節快到了,總是不知不覺地就想到妳,也沒有過節的打算呀,怎麼老姊妳會悄然地爬上心頭呢?是時間又讓你繞了一圈回到我身邊了吧?
好想妳呀!不想還好,想著心裡就痛得不得了,就算放聲大哭也不恰當,只是痛,乾乾硬硬的痛...
勸別人都容易,但要自己過這關還真難,想念的痛不容易釋懷,畢竟我是平凡人,我對妳的愛是平凡人的愛,是自私的,所以我想著不可能讓妳快樂但是還要妳為了討厭的人賴活著...
唉,走了也好,賞可惡的人一耳光,讓他們痛苦得不得翻身...
好吧!用我小人悲賤的想法就不會這麼傷心了,畢竟幫妳報了仇,但是我想要與妳分享的喜悅呢?妳走了之後生活變了好多,真希望妳還在,過節過得不爽也好,畢竟我還摸得到妳...

Changes have yet to come!

200 years after the US congress banned slave trade, we now have a black president!

However, 25 years after Roe v. Wade, we have yet to walk out of the tunnel of abortion stigma. Congratulations to S. Dakota, Colorado and us Californian women, our voice had shed some light in the way out of the tunnel.

But shame on Californians who took the out-of-state handouts and swallowed their morality! Lesbians and gays' families fell in a shallow boat thank to the discriminating ideology.

Are LGBT humans?

Perhaps today's LGBT resemble Sara Baartman in 1814, a young African woman displayed naked as a science project in traveling circus in Europe. She was not a human, because the Bible did not mention any black skin. LGBT are aliens, because the Bible did not mention unions other than virgina and penis. Sara's brain and genitals were displayed in Paris until 1976; for more than 150 years, we did not consider this human have the same right as the rest of us. Will it take that long to admit LGBT, too, have basic rights to love, have sex, live together, marry each other and have children?

Does marriage mean a virgina and a penis? Do all non-child-bearing married women commit a crime? Do believes separate us from each other?

Until we recognize that all are equal: animals, plants, women, men, LGBT, handicapped, the dying and the young, until we learn that the majority do not have the right to exploit the minority, Changes have yet to come!

February 12, 2004, San Francisco made history by granting the first ever same-sex marriage license to a prominent lesbian couple as part of a challenge to a ban on gay marriage. Longtime activists Phyllis Lyon, 79, and Del Martin, 83, who have been a couple for over 51 years, said their vows at city hall after Mayor Gavin Newsom ordered officials to wed gay couples and issue marriage licenses in an act of civil disobedience against a state law that bars same-sex marriages.

Cow Parade in Taipei!!!

My favorite Cow Parade is coming to Taipei. No excuse to not go home now:)

Event organizers did an interesting twist different than past Cow Parades in other countries.

They invited students to design some cows and the finished cows will be displayed along with professional artists' cows.

Oh, do I envy these kids! Painting a cow for Cow Parade is my dream. Someday when they come to LA crushing our silly Angels, I shall get my own cow.

The creativity in the students' cows are amazing! Though professional artists have a subtler presentation on concepts, I find students' cows connect to people on a more intimate level. Of course, the talents represent Taiwan's culture make this Cow Parade stands out and man are they all Original! Did I say, Original? What is the cool if we are painting Picasso or McDonald's? Although painting our legendary or fable characters may make foreigners scratch their heads, but I say worth the cause, this is how cultures communicate with each other! Check it out, this is my favorite cow, from a student; I not only like the idea, but also his professionalism. The cow is titled: The Monkey King. (or Sun Wukong if you want to say it the way Chinese say it)

Quote of the week

"I believe that banking institutions are more dangerous to our liberties than standing armies. If the American people ever allow private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks and corporations that will grow up around the banks will deprive the people of all property until their children wake-up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered."
Thomas Jefferson 1802

sounds familiar?
It's the American spirit.
You can not trade US dollar for gold, but you can trade your smaller US dollar for a even smaller US dollar. To know more, watch clips from Zeitgeist.

can life be simple?

Choices, choices and a 2-mile-long list of decisions to make.

Thought art making is simple, drawing what you like, follow the line, add some color, build up the mass, and seal it with pretty glitter.

But art career swirls like a water hole, then art business throws some rocks in, do you want to break the swirls and let it flow, or jump in to catch the rocks?

Fortunately for the human race, I'm not a congresswoman who has to be responsible for people's life and death. Probably at that point, one simply ignores the responsibility anyway.

Nor am I the CEO who's responsible for a 3-million dollar deal every hour on the clock.

But I do, too, have to calculate my cost and value. What's the price, whom to bargain with, how to ship it, how much insurance to buy, call the dealer, call the museum to release works, sign cold-hearted papers, swipe credit cards... and ah, deposit checks.

This year I have a goal to treat my business as a real business. Considering if I'd run a restaurant for the past 6 years, I'd close my door long time ago. Art is unique, but has to deserves something better than a draining pipe. It is time to slowly moving out of the haunted house of funneling saving account to art supplies. So bronze price has risen sky high, I will just forget about it. Sometimes one has to compromise a bit, especially for a perfectionist like me. I always have the instinct to pick the most expensive dress in the whole store, therefore always want to most high end for my work... well, it should feel better to earn the best than spending the best.

So many decisions to make that one can never tell for sure if it is a correct choice. I can simply do my best with my little soft brain and go with the learning curve. Life strikes the bell that rings. I shall ring and ring and ring, and someday say, I can now ring on my own now, no more lessons needed. Leave me alone so I can devote my best life to everything art.